anxiety is terrifying
i have no idea how i feel but being scared of absolutely everything all the time makes it near impossible to function
it makes you act and feel weird
my view of everything is hazed yet new memories are more vivid than ever
touch feels new, old experiences feel fresh, the mundane is the exciting
being apart makes me exhausted but not the same exhaustion as being with you, an aching numbing sensation.
i feel overwhelmed by worries without you, not the same overwhelmed i feel looking out at the sea holding your hand, but one that feels like crashing waves to my chest.
at the start we wrote letters to each other about the sea
i guess love is like resisting the urge to let yourself drown so easily in the water surrounding you when you feel at your lowest, because your highest is worth nearly drowning every time.
Joni Mitchell, by Robert M Knight.
Nicky Samuel wearing a tulip print dress designed by Ossie Clark, 1972
jen mann artist